balance

I've had it balancing my time with family and friends. i don't wanna care anymore!!! I'm spending too much now a days, I've gotta cut down expenses. I've decide to stay at home till I'm financially secured to go out. i actually planned this post in a paper last night.So, about balance s far the problem now is balancing family and friend time. I spend equal time with friends but somehow that time keep demanding more. so far I'm balancing good but what back fired is my time with friends and I'm sad to say my time studying 2... My time studying is taken up by my time hanging out with my friends. my time spending with family also tend to clash with my time spend with friends. i need a time table but i don' t like my life planned out. its weird n predictable. oh, screw it I'll make my time table.... i written lots of shit bout critic shits in the paper but I'm tired typing it here. As for my study, i make a vow that after my double date 2ml I'll wont go hang out til i catch up with my study. I'll let my social life suffer 4 awhile while i make up my time with my study.

I wanna critic a fact of treating your friend like a lover. treating your friend like a lover is so so so fucking wrong man, WRONG! Friend and lover are different. There are LINES and BOUNDARIES. You cant treat a friend like a lover its just playing weird and creepy. However, people should say treat your friend like your family. I dont ask more from my friends. I know my lines and boundaries VERY CLEARLY... sharing food and drinks with friend is not weird. it gets weird when that friend feed the other friend looking into each other' s eyes hypnotically.

these are just crap talk bout study and friends case i'm feeling frustrated but them. I just wish somehow i could tel my friends i wana hang out not cause i wanna be cool, i just want company. i'm not using any1, i juz wanna get 2 noe people around me. I could hang with myself when i want to. I don't kiss ass just to b cool dats just playing desperate...I mean no offend to P.S =) hehehez.. sori...




oh ya screw them respect nobody respect anybody in kuching this is a fucking gia su and population no respect town!! i spit on the face on every 1 i use 2 respect except celebs. i'm now an asshole and a jerk. fuck dat !! Malysians SUCK!! i suck, dat's your problem deal with it!!! I dont kiss ass!