this is just what i always wana say to my ex!!! SCARS(do any1 ever realize when crossout the C it spelled SARS?)

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And my scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I'm Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed 'cause you came around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause I channeled all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is...

[Chorus:]
I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
And my weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassion's in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

[Chorus]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shoulda' never come around
Why don't you just go home?
'Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand

Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]



I do feel the pain but not anymore from you. Time heals. I just feel sorry for you. Too bad you have no idea what I'm talking about. hahahaz.... DUMBASS

what happen in taman sahabat at night.....

as you all know taman sahabat or friendship park is a park that signify unison of china and Malaysia. By day its just another innocent park that is too hot to take a walk. most residents nearby take a walk there at the evening or night cause is more cooling by that time. haha.. as many people thought that couple go there to take a walk 2 but not many know that couples rather go there park their car, and have sex in the car. This is what i did last night when i go there:

Ray n Robbie, my very close cousin were blur as usual including me actually on our way home from spring. As our blurring continue, their sister suddenly out of the blue suggested to go to friendship park. We agreed blurly and we're off to friendship park. i suddenly remembered what couples do in the car when thy're in friendship park... a crazy idea occur to me ... when we're at the park i turn on my lights 2 maximum brightness n shine in 2 ppl's car...hahahaha... we've caught a few couples doing it...hahahaha... some making out.... i actually caught a guy piss at the bush...hahahaha... we rolled down the windows n shout "we are assholes" ... ( i know... i'm an ass) hahahahah....it's great to do dat.... i winked at some gurls fun when i'm at spring... awesome time yeaterday.... 2 bad Mandy didn't come... she sure would get a kick out of this 1... when we were at friendship park we keep on talking crap bout loch ness monster living in dat lake n laughing at some crock being in the lake...


well, that's all 4 this post.... i'll eand it witha looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooog aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa sssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss

shimmy!! peaze!!!

You can move on when you accept the past

well, the past came n haunted me but this time i accepted it and move on... i and my ex r really just friends now... in a weird way its good... i can see no bad intention... i'm a person of not much words so.... i will end this post with a long aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...... ok now i'm done.... have a nice day... peace...

my point of view on the movie called "the orphan"

this is Esther(freaky isn't she?)

well, i went 2 watch THE ORPHAN with Teresa today.. i give that movie a five out of five star preview on the thriller category.. that movie is about a shaken mother who is haunted by her past of loosing a unborn fetus and decided to adopt a child. After much therapy, she adopted a child from the orphanage but she knew little bout the orphan's past. The orphan's name is Esther who turn's out to be a crazed psycho killer who have feelings for the woman's husband. the sick twist is that Esther have a hormone disorder which made her look like a 9 year old but she actually is 33 years old. she killed her adopted family cuz the father is nt into her..(like i said throughout the movie, "sick crazy kid!!") the hapi ending is that the mother killed Esther,thus saved the chidren and unfortunately the father died. After the movie, Teresa was all shaken up, so was i... that made the movie sooooo awesome!!

HOW LAME CAN LIFE BE?

everything seems 2 go on in a blur 2 day... everything is a piece of blur and life is very blur... wonder how my ex handle life in k.l... when will this piece of shit gonna end?? so fucking hate 2day!!!

and 2day's gonna work out how??

well frankly.... i dunno wad's wrong wif 2day... nothing is going rite since i woke up dis mornin.... i dunno y am i so pissed about... nothing feel rite... i keep wishing i juz sleep through the day n juz missed 2 day... so fucked off by dis feeling!!!! y m i soooo angry????!! I wanna get out of the house n just chilll!!1 till now i nt yet even go spring check out the cineplex!! fuck 2day!!

whao false alarm of swine flu virus....!!!!!

well, the last 2 days i was having fever. kill my chance 2 go dating. the fever made me sleep all weekend!!! damn weather n germs n other stuff!! there's 1 important thing i learn when having a fever: WHEN YOU KNOW YOU CANT BATH/WASH YOUR HAIR WHEN U HAVING FEVER,NEVER EVER APPLY HAIR GEL OR WAX ON YOUR HAIR JUZ CUZ U'LL THINK YOU'LL LOOK HEALTHY. well the truth is dat you dont look healthy!! you'll look like a bla n have reeeeeeally bad looking hair... I went 2 the clinic yesterday and its a very irritating place 2 me... when i get sick,everything sound so loud... the doctor got my temperature n it reads 39.1 degrees Celsius... I've wondered ideally how hot does it take 2 make my brain boil n something bout breakdance... I'm feeling way way better nw.... goin back 2 skul 2ml... peaze out!!

wad's up with shitz lately?

alright i dunno what the fuck is up with people lately... it's all damn weird..
SO HERE'S AN UPDATE OF MY LIFE

1. I juz found my other half right after my frenz come back home from n.s... i met her in n.s when going visit my pals y.t n p.s, y.t(a.k.a Mandy) told me bout her.. she told me dat our interest r similar in every way. all and all,awesome. It turns out dat she happen live opposite my grandma's house. We never met cuz she never come out from her house to play outside before. She agreed 2 be mine at 12 July. All is good and steady now.
   
2. Its been quite awhile since form 6 started.Subject that I'm taking now are some how hard in a way but still easy? I have no place to point out the difficulty of Form 6. Its cool being in the same class with my best buddies. It get claustrophobic sometimes but i got over it. Since day 1 of school reopen, i never get used to wear the form 6 uniform. I hate it to the core but i still need to be patient till i graduate after STPM next year. Good thing being prefect reduce the suckness of the uniform.
3. During the holiday, I and my buddy hui ting(a.k.a Angela) got 2 patch up the distance of being from just friends to being best friends. It evolve when i n her work in a cafe called BELLA'S. My employer is the worst businessman in history. That job suck eggs. I've gained good experience though. Two months ago, me, Mandy n P.S had a fight with hui ting. We haven't spoken since then. Yesterday,Hui Ting went to Mandy's house in sekama sobbing and crying. Turns out the guy she had a crush on and fell in love with have a new girlfriend and she found out about it the hard way. I think now we're friends agian.

And so... I'm expecting i'nteresting shits this year, so far..... It just got more and more interesting...